In hopes of feeling better...

I am writing to you all, and myself. Staying with someone who you found out cheated on you is hard. In fact, it’s much worse than leaving. When you leave you get to tell all your friends about them, and parade around feeling good about yourself that you left, calling them a “pos” and defining them by those actions to a crowd. You get to start over. See trust in someone else, more than you believe you ever could in your past lover again. In fact, you probably will trust others more than the person who hurt you out of survival… 

But when you stay, you prove your own loyalty. You prove you are not a quitter. You go against all odds and hope for the best. You don’t think you trust them, but really you are. Every day. Again and again. Without telling anyone what happened. You know you’ve built something great, something not worth giving up. 

Yet we’re the ones who look crazy on our bad days, on our sad days. Because nobody understands, even the person who hurt you. 

We are our own warriors. 

We all have our own reasons for the decisions we make. 

I’m laying in the bed I made. 

I just hope it gets warmer.